how horny?

angrierblonde: well, i am horny enough to fuck a guy so yeah i would say that's really horny...

fuckit.

I hope.

I hope there really is a Hellmouth somewhere.

Preferably nearby.

I hope it devours us all and cuts us to ribbons with it's supersharp toofers.

I'm tired of fucking up
and tired of being fucked up
and most of all I am tired
of people.

Maybe we'll all get wiped out someday and then there can be a fresh start.

Of course I wouldn't be here to see that, now would I?

I am tired of games and tired of being tugged at and pushed away and tired of how cruel ppl can be, how cruel i can be.

what a sick abomination is the human.

god/goddess couldn't have quit when he was ahead? with piggies and elephants? =(

anyway human connection is all a lie so i shan't even attempt.

i'll have my pet and then everyone else can go to Hell. oh no we're already here. "hell is other ppl". who said that?? i know one of you knows.

staying here tonight. in no mood for dragging my lazy ass back to dorms. it's safer here. in the mood i'm in.

fuckit.

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but...

but still the stupid flesh is so weak
despite how my heart has frozen over and closed up
still my skin feels like it will shrivel and fall away without kisses and caresses.....
like a baby i am...baby animal...needs to be retaught to trust, to be touched..
right now i am more likely to bite your damn arm off..
i need to be held and kissed and loved and reassured.
but that aint gonna be fucking happening anytime soon now is it?

grrr. butterflyprincess......where are you????

every cell in my body cries out..

B.

and...

is everyone avoiding me or have i gone all paranoid again??

out, out, out..

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and also...

sometimes people pretend they want to be my friend
and then totally ignore me when i wave at them, ignore me on aim etc.

this is rude and cruel and makes me hate everybody.

like, i would never act all chummybondy with someone and then totally avoid them. that is a seriously messed up thing to do. and inconsiderate.

in fact, it makes me sorry i even try.
like if you had any idea how hard it is for me to even have a conversation with another person..

i don't know why so many ppl are so keen to fuck with my head but in the end it will come back on them. i mean i hope it does. it probably won't.

maybe i'm being melodramatic but i've taken enough shit from ppl to grow enough corn to feed an entire starving nation.

and i suppose i have been left a tad volatile by it all.

i'm pretty sure you know who you are and i would really appreciate a response, thank you.

b.

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