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[iphigenia]

Lips once warm against my own
Now forever cold
Moments I lingered by phones
But there would always be another day
I imagined you and she allied against me, laughing
So that kept me away
When I found out you were happy with someone new
I was jealous and resentful
And I thought "Why am I always a pit stop on the way to everyone's true love?"
When you broke up, I felt...relieved.
If I knew how deep the knife was twisting, well, I wouldn't have.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I never fought to keep you as a friend.
I'm sorry I didn't want things to work out with you and that girl.
I'm sorry that you obliterated a world of possibilities
with your own hands, the hands that once fit so perfectly in mine.
I'm sorry I said I hated you behind your back after we were over.
I'm sorry I didn't try harder to understand you.
I know I was a minor player in the drama of your life, but for whatever damage I did carelessly inflict along the way, I'm sorry.