You Can't Wake, I Can't Sleep

They just said on the news that they did this study and only 2% of American women think they're beautiful and only 13% are satisfied with their appearance.

It made me think of something that happened to me in sixth grade. This bitchy girl in my class was going around asking all of us if we thought we were pretty and when she asked me I said "yes" and she was like "omg!!! you're so full of yourself! girls are never supposed to say they think they're pretty. that's conceited!" which I guess answered the question as to why everyone else had responded "No".

That was the last time I made that mistake. And then I hit puberty and gained weight and stopped thinking I was pretty anyway.

But now I still find myself thinking "I can't believe she just said that!" every time another girl says something positive about her own appearance. Like, how DARE a girl feel good about her body and not want to lose eight million pounds or want bigger breasts or something?

I find it interesting they didn't do a corresponding study with men, though.

Because I do wonder if some things are really girl things or just America things?

Are guys really encouraged to find themselves attractive and have confidence in their physical appearance?

Not being a guy, I have no idea.

I just know that people always talk about women in conjunction with low self esteem as related to physical appearance.

Certainly, the pressure to be skinny is less so with guys?

And yet hearing a guy talk about how hot he is makes him kindof unlikeable to me too, and surely I'm not the only one?

Is that because I have a low self image and people who don't make me uncomfortable or is that just obnoxious?

What is it about self-deprecation in both sexes that is so damn appealling when it's really not supposed to be? We're supposed to be drawn to people who are confident, that's why people always tell you to act confident if you want to attract people.

So yeah now I'm just rambling.