everything

[iphigenia]

everything has gone horribly wrong somehow.

and i'm not quite sure how to fix it.

i don't want to be where i am, who i am, doing what i am for one minute longer.

"...cuz i'm full as a tick and i'm scratching at the surface.........." - fiona apple

every tiny thing is too much to deal with and i just want to hide in my bed until it all goes away.

"hiiiiide from time....hide from time....." -queen adreena

i need more Fire, i need more Earth..

my Water drowns out everything.

It quenches my fire and kills all earthly vegetation.

Stupid emotions.

Wishy-washy, indecisive.

More time wasted crying then creating.

"that's why every little thing counts, every little thing counts..."

I should have gone to Art School. Or done any, anything else.

I will never be an intellectual and now I don't even want to.

hrmph.

and now i am late for horrid Music Theory and i haven't done the homework and i don't fucking care.
but i do. just not enough.

*grumble*

my concentration/dedication/determination went sliding past the window pane again.

~bethany is wrong (professionally)

Comments

[talula.livejournal.com]

no, you need more water. *swims with y'*
I'm upset that I keep missing your calls, and color yourself special, pumpkin, I hate talking on the phone, but I wanna talk and gossip and flirt and daydream with you, yes.
you're so much loverly, I hope I can help y'feel betters. I'm having the fam over for dinner, but I'll be around late t'nite so's we can talk.
*pets*

[new-birth.livejournal.com]

damn I am identifying with the majority of this post.

((hugs))

Lyrical