I am fucking Staaaaarvinggggggg!!!! grrrr.

I edited this googlism down to my top faves =)

bethany is a daddy's girl.
bethany is actually quite unique.
bethany is messing with angel's sleep.
bethany is fantastic.
bethany is big and tall and possesses a bigger than life aura.
bethany is a little girl.
bethany is god.
bethany is so good at recording her own experiences.
bethany is wonderful.
bethany is far from glamorous.
bethany is more than confounded by her time travel.
bethany is blessed with many servants willing to lead and give in different capacities.
bethany is tough.
bethany is a onetime political operative.
bethany is approximately 238.
bethany is dead.

go do yours @ http://www.googlism.com !

and then come over and feed me.

thank you

thank you to my beautiful, supportive online friends who say helpful things and make me feel betterz...

*hugs*

i think i might just sell my soul for a cherry coke and some pizza right now but everything's closed and i have no money =(

halfanhour to go til OLTL on soapnet and then hopefully after that i will be able to sleep!

adieu, lovelies..

bethy

at school

they have put these strange condom-things on all the keyboards!!! they feel reallly weird and rubbery!!!

today was taking quizzes, sleeping, eating.

having strange dreams about huge blistery rashes on my tummy (*vomits*) and that they were making dawn on bufferz gay and auditioning girlies to play her love interest lol

i talked to my mom about taking up acting again becuz i feel haunted by the hole giving it up has left in my life, so maybe i can just go on some auditions and then i'll remember how much i hate the entire business. or maybe not.

career-wise, all i know is if i don't do something at least moderately creative, i will wind up jumping out a window or something. i mean ultimately for my Real Career. in the meantime i just need some fricking money.

i feel restless and unsated. always.

it's been going on for far too long.

it's school. it's the dryness of academia. because certainly everything in my life should be...wet! heh. that leaves me like this. i don't know. i'm almost done anyway.

wow i'm hungry again. i had such amazing soup today. it was the most soothing thing in the world.

how can someone be anxious and bored at the same time? cuz that is all i ever am in classes, feeling like i'm gonna crawl out of my skin. not that there's anything wrong with that, some of my closest friends molt =)

i actually got to watch my damn soap today, so that perked me up for awhilez.

oh yeah and i had ... CAKE. *swoons*

no that is not a code word. i'm actually swooning over cake. hehe.

"and we don't come together...
and we don't come alone..."

ta!

bethy