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everything has gone horribly wrong somehow.
and i'm not quite sure how to fix it.
i don't want to be where i am, who i am, doing what i am for one minute longer.
"...cuz i'm full as a tick and i'm scratching at the surface.........." - fiona apple
every tiny thing is too much to deal with and i just want to hide in my bed until it all goes away.
"hiiiiide from time....hide from time....." -queen adreena
i need more Fire, i need more Earth..
my Water drowns out everything.
It quenches my fire and kills all earthly vegetation.
Stupid emotions.
Wishy-washy, indecisive.
More time wasted crying then creating.
"that's why every little thing counts, every little thing counts..."
I should have gone to Art School. Or done any, anything else.
I will never be an intellectual and now I don't even want to.
hrmph.
and now i am late for horrid Music Theory and i haven't done the homework and i don't fucking care.
but i do. just not enough.
*grumble*
my concentration/dedication/determination went sliding past the window pane again.
~bethany is wrong (professionally)
and i'm not quite sure how to fix it.
i don't want to be where i am, who i am, doing what i am for one minute longer.
"...cuz i'm full as a tick and i'm scratching at the surface.........." - fiona apple
every tiny thing is too much to deal with and i just want to hide in my bed until it all goes away.
"hiiiiide from time....hide from time....." -queen adreena
i need more Fire, i need more Earth..
my Water drowns out everything.
It quenches my fire and kills all earthly vegetation.
Stupid emotions.
Wishy-washy, indecisive.
More time wasted crying then creating.
"that's why every little thing counts, every little thing counts..."
I should have gone to Art School. Or done any, anything else.
I will never be an intellectual and now I don't even want to.
hrmph.
and now i am late for horrid Music Theory and i haven't done the homework and i don't fucking care.
but i do. just not enough.
*grumble*
my concentration/dedication/determination went sliding past the window pane again.
~bethany is wrong (professionally)
it is way too cold outside.
i think they should just cancel the world.
and we should all curl up in bed with hot cocoa (vegan or otherwise) and be snuggly and safe and watch SoapNet.
I think I shall run for president with this campaign. heh.
I feel deeply lost and unsated. Like the perfect cult victim. Eeks! =(
In MusicTheoryFromHell, it was observed that the entire class seemed "oddly lethargic". hehe.
I could do with some caffeine, definitely.
Now I have to run all over creation in the cold, looking for worms and crickies for Hallie...and then i shall meet Kat to go and see "Jackass" (words do not describe how overjoyed I am about this! grr)..
"I eat, I eat
I starve, I starve
It never goes away" - Excuse 17
"It's just one of those days
when you don't want to wake up
everything is fucked
everybody sucks
you don't really know why
but you just want to justify
ripping someone's head off
no personal contact
and if you interact
your life is on contract
so your best bet is to
STAY AWAY motherfucker
it's just one of those days" - Limp Bizkit
=)
b.
i think they should just cancel the world.
and we should all curl up in bed with hot cocoa (vegan or otherwise) and be snuggly and safe and watch SoapNet.
I think I shall run for president with this campaign. heh.
I feel deeply lost and unsated. Like the perfect cult victim. Eeks! =(
In MusicTheoryFromHell, it was observed that the entire class seemed "oddly lethargic". hehe.
I could do with some caffeine, definitely.
Now I have to run all over creation in the cold, looking for worms and crickies for Hallie...and then i shall meet Kat to go and see "Jackass" (words do not describe how overjoyed I am about this! grr)..
"I eat, I eat
I starve, I starve
It never goes away" - Excuse 17
"It's just one of those days
when you don't want to wake up
everything is fucked
everybody sucks
you don't really know why
but you just want to justify
ripping someone's head off
no personal contact
and if you interact
your life is on contract
so your best bet is to
STAY AWAY motherfucker
it's just one of those days" - Limp Bizkit
=)
b.
.