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[iphigenia]

i feel so alone and needy, it's gross.

i have so much love to give and no one to give it to.

i have so many things to share and no one to share them with.

if i just had a someone, i would fight for them, bleed for them, give them all of me until it drained me.

i would be buffy letting angel feed on her to heal himself.

"can i lay my hands on you? it'd be selfish, that's true. cause healing you could heal me too."

i feel like paulie from "lost and delirious" now and always.

i want my passionate "notebook" romance....now, please?

i need someone to need me, and to miss me horribly when i'm away and to smile when i'm near them just because being with me is enough even if we're both in crappy moods or have nothing to say.

too many people who felt like "the one" or one of the possible ones, but ultimately didn't fit me and outgrowing each other like clothing.

i'm just tired.

i want to find my person already. i want to settle down and be done with it.

i want to belong to someone.

i want to feel safe with someone.

"i want so much so bad, come on and lay it down...you have always been with me, here and now...."

i want to meet someone and *know*.

i know, i know, stop looking and then it'll happen. but.

i don't know.

i'm sad and i hurt and i'm yearning and my soul aches and i sound melodramatic and cliche-full because i feel things too much and that's how it...is.

that's getting old too.

feeling things too deeply.

sorry for being so depressing of late.

my entries are fucking whiny and it's irritating.

yet they keep on coming.