Okay I have a million more thoughts now!! Er, Lost spoilies.

[iphigenia]

AND ALSO, the whole importance of Jack letting people help him and asking for help, and them all helping each other. This gets back to the convo I was having with Elisabeth the other night a bit, and it really fucking resonated with me, because I resist people's help so much (pride? self sabotage?) and I think its a major problem.

AND ALSO so many beautiful Claire/Kate moments, so amazingly acted, the birth of Aaron and also them on the plane holding hands and looking at each other, kind of redeemed some things for me like "okay this is still a show about friendships" not just the romantic connections.

AND ALSO being a bad Skater here, but omgzzzz the scene with Sawyer and Juliet!!!!! It totally tore my heart out.

And ultimately did wind up being a show about all these people who are connected to one another and that trumped all the romantic whatever for me, even though I did have some heavy investments in who wound up with who, but that wound up being so irrelevant ultimately.

I get that the ending was meant to left us feeling unsettled/shocked in a way, I mean, but it made me feel realllllly unsettled and pretty upset. But....in an amazing way I suppose.

I'm usually good at predicting where things will go and I get really fucking cocky about it, and I love that I (and most people really as far as I know) were proven completely wrong with this ending. That's just genius to me.

The thing is I so badly wanted a happily ever for everyone (even though this was *a* version of a happily ever after and a clever and unique one) that I feel a little sad it didn't happen.

I like the "death isn't the end"-ness and Jack's scene with his dad and it was so hopeful in a way.

But (and my assumption that parallel world would become real world was already shaken by things said at the Paley thing), I really wanted it to be...as soon as they started talking about going back I was like "noooo".

I don't know. It was gorgeous and brilliant and disappointing and all kinds of things.

And I got all shippy about ships I hated, like Shannon and Sayid.

And despite my yay!independence, life shouldn't be all about romance, I was kind of sad that Boone never found a girl (or guy or you know anyone) of his own, but he seemed happy and free from Shannon issues (letgo, letgo, letgo...)

And then again if *everyone* wound up cute and coupled off, I would have been really pissed, so there is no winning with me.

But then no one was really together outside of that space.

And I am really confused about a bunch of things and I feel like i need a separate "these are my questions" post.

BUT I love the notion of there existing a space where time is completely irrelevant and not real. That part struck me as particularly Buddhist, as followers of Buddhism recognize that all of time is really an illusion and everything is really going on all at the same time and being able to see beyond that illusion, or the illusion of whatever perceptions we are experiencing from our immediate senses as Truth, is key to enlightenment, and being able to transcend that and enter into a space in your consciousness where external circumstances stop being relevant and being able to experience that level of connection to other souls, living or dead, kind of triumphing over the divisions created by time and space and circumstance. So, in some ways it was a very Christian ending, with themes of being tested and redemption, but also I think Buddhist. And that maybe that particular physical location was not an actual physical location they created but rather a certain level of consciousness where they could all re-connect, having been bonded by intensity of shared experience. Or was that really obvious and I was just slow to get it??

Also Matthew Fox being all cryingy on Jimmy Kimmel made me love him forever, and I can't stand him, but I just wanted to give him mad hugs at that moment.

The questions I am left with mostly have to do with sequences of events and what actually happened when because...things that seemed to have actually happened, when revisited, never happened, which I suppose is more of the time travel/time is arbitrary aspect. But then I don't think they never happened (and what Matthew said on Kimmel reaffirmed) but rather after everything happened one way, they returned to a different version where they had not previously died to re-experience their deaths in a less traumatic way, perhaps?

So. Yes. Conclusion: I am impressed.

Also, if Jack never had a son, Desmond and Penny never did either...wait or did they?? Because they were still alive at that point, I think. In keeping with Jack's dad's "some are already dead, some will die much later"....so they probably did still have Charlie??

But that it all wrapped up with Jack's making peace with his dad, beautiful, beautiful....

As other characters, I think, kind of resolved their daddy/mommy issues in various ways.

I still feel like Hurley and Ben are existing in two separate realities right now?? And after jack, i was thinking Hurley would be best island keeper, really. Did I miss something with that??

Also were Miles and Lapidus in the church at the end?? I didn't notice.

Also, I'm still thinking it's possible I misunderstood pretty much everything about this episode.

But like it's left to our interpretations in a way, and this is my interpretation, so I feel like I can't be actually wrong?

And thank you, writers, for letting Kate have a big heroic moment there and contribute in such a major way to destruction of Man In Black!!

Also part of this episode reminded me soooooo much of this dream I had a few weeks ago and never wrote down...and it was all to do with jumping off a really high ledge onto pavement where it seemed impossible I would not die but a voice in my said was saying "no, if you jump, you will absolutely land on your feet," so I did and I landed right on my feet from some impossible height and I filed it away as a metaphorical "Leap of Faith" dream, not necessarily religious faith, but more faith in myself ??? And the one part where Kate and Sawyer jumped off that cliff into the water brought it back in technicolor, so of course I was all like "oh this is a metaphor too!"

Comments

[juliet-demarcus.livejournal.com]

Well, you were a Sawyer/Juliet shipper (at least notably so) first, right? Even if you did majorly switch teams... :)

I thought it was cool that they gave Kate a heroic kickass moment too...even when she tried to shoot MIB before and it didn't work it was pretty kickass and I liked it!

Penny and Desmond did have a son, in real life. It was just the flash sideways that was the afterlife, though you probably already have that straightened out by now.

I didn't even noticed Matthew Fox being cryingy on Jimmy Kimmel. Heh. How did I miss that. I was really tired when I was watching it though and zoning out thinking about the finale. I DVRed it though.

[ginevra-alessa.livejournal.com]

Well, you know me. I'm like a professional team switcher :p

Fuck yeah Kate being kickass!

Well he wasn't like actively sobbing or anything, but his eyes were all red and his face was all "i've been crying" puffy and his voice seemed a little wobbly. so nothing comparable to, you know, JEARS, but still it looked like he at least had been crying while watching the finale...

[juliet-demarcus.livejournal.com]

Yes, I know. ;-)

Aww, that's sweet and cute. He's very...pretty when he cries...I don't know. I'm glad I don't know more about Matthew Fox so I can just know that. :)

[ginevra-alessa.livejournal.com]

yes he is pretty when he cries.
and i do appreciate that he can be like shockingly honest about stuff in his past in interviews, really.
i'm starting to <3 him ...