Not The Only One

You say any man who practices the principle is selfish
feeling your own heart divided like a war
that doesn't matter to anyone
in some country no one's heard of
she rebukes you but you know she agrees
you have always understood each other
and of course you should have met her first
because you could have made her happier
both of you silently knowing all his failings
that which connects you
is that which divides you
but not the only thing
that keeps you feigning innocence
pretending you don't need her
that her warm brown curls
the warmth of her smile
do not leave you feeling cold in your bed
the only one who understands you
is not the only one you love
so you wait forever
for your lover to recover
and you'll always forgive her
because sleeping on the couch of the other
you are thinking
i should have met her first
and realize sharing a heart might be worse
than sharing a body
and maybe you are halfway to being
the thing you thought you were so much better than