It is of utmost importance that the bipolar maintain some kindof quasinormal sleep schedule and especially that they aren't staying up for over 24 hours or running around on 3 hours sleep which induces the likelihood of mania (which i can deal with) which then leads to inevitable crash. Depression. Bliss.
I missed the first half an hour of the rerun of OLTL cuz I was watching "Get Over It" with my sister and singing "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAllllllison" at the top of my lungs and stuffs, but the part I saw made me sad for my Lindsay.
Oh I am always out in the bloody cold looking in on the warm and happy and in love, yes. I felt it.
And yes I am speaking metaphorically.
I don't really like stalk people.
No, *really*....LOL.
Well, I'm back on my sister's laptop because unfortunately Natalie-Meadow (yes that is the name of *my* new laptop) met with a tragick fate this afternoon when my sister accidentally sat on the screen and the screen like broke off and wires snapped and oh the screen went all weird and now tomorro we are bringing her in to the lappytop doctors to see if there's anything they can do.
*sniffle*
I love her so much already!
Natalie-Meadow is sitting in the corner of the room covered in Sage, in the hopes that it will dispel some badness because my sister was really jealous I got her and in a way I think that energy got her hurt.
You know like the Evil Eye??
Whatever, please send your prayers out to my Natalie-Meadow cuz she's all comatose right now and I can't deal!
One day. I had her one day before disaster struck.
but then again it's like the perfect metaphor for everything else in my life, no?
Tomorro is running around, picking up lastminute Klonopin, cleaning out the rest of the stuff from my dorm, dropping off NM (if my dad knew he would FLIP!), some other crap I don't want to do..oh bringing Hallie and all her stuffs over to my aunts house.
*sniffle*
I miss her alreadys!! That tiny insomniac has picked up Mommy's horrid sleep schedule, bah i suck.
So woohoo we are going to Florida to stay at a nice hotel for a week on Saturday and I know I should feel all blessed and rich and stuffs but my OCD issues send me over the edge whenever there is *any* break in routine.
Like I need my time of drinking coffee and having a clove alone on the window sill and listening to music and thinkingthinkingthinking to prepare me for the coming day and I won't have that when I'm away and I won't have it tomorrow even and that sucketh mucheth.
Okay, fun exciting stuff now!!!
Tomorrow night I am meeting Other Jen aka![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lipstickboi for coffee and to see a play and I am very nervous and excited because she sounded all lovely on the phone and this is the closest thing to a date I've gone on since I broke up with Willa in August.
Hopefully I'll be able to get in a few hours of sleep before then so I don't just collapse.
OOhhhhhh they just showed the add for All My Children where they play Xtina's "Dirty" and the ladies are all fancy and wearing white and la la la...i heart that ad..
oh wow looks like i'm gonna still be up to catch the 6 AM OLTL...lol!
I'm going to bbe utterly SoapFree in Florida, cuz our hotel no get the ABC..
Evil!
I remember listening to Bianca's coming out fiasco at the Starlight Ball or whatever in my TV walkman(yes i have one of these somewhere) and i was wandering around Coconut Grove and that was like such a huge moment for me! like ppl kept trying to talk to me and i was like "SHUT UP!!! I'm listening to something important" and then I was taking photographs while I was listening to it, like in the parking lot and everytime I look at them I relive the whole thing.
I'm so cheezzzy I knows!!! *giggle*
but i was sooo proud of my little Binks and now i hardly even watch the show...oh wellz....
My sister and I were also watching "Sugar and Spice".
I FREAKING LOVE THAT MOVIE!!!
It makes me want to be a cheerleader lol and i rememer dying my hair auburn when i first saw it cuz i wanted to be Kansas (Mena Suvari's charac) cuz I thought she was the fucking bomb except for that little homophobic outburst which i chose to edit out.
But in reality I'm so much more Cleo (the stalky, obsessive, dreamy, nymphomaniac one!!) hehehe....
oh wells. i think abby just signed on, i'm gonna go talk to her.
*mwahimous*
I missed the first half an hour of the rerun of OLTL cuz I was watching "Get Over It" with my sister and singing "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAllllllison" at the top of my lungs and stuffs, but the part I saw made me sad for my Lindsay.
Oh I am always out in the bloody cold looking in on the warm and happy and in love, yes. I felt it.
And yes I am speaking metaphorically.
I don't really like stalk people.
No, *really*....LOL.
Well, I'm back on my sister's laptop because unfortunately Natalie-Meadow (yes that is the name of *my* new laptop) met with a tragick fate this afternoon when my sister accidentally sat on the screen and the screen like broke off and wires snapped and oh the screen went all weird and now tomorro we are bringing her in to the lappytop doctors to see if there's anything they can do.
*sniffle*
I love her so much already!
Natalie-Meadow is sitting in the corner of the room covered in Sage, in the hopes that it will dispel some badness because my sister was really jealous I got her and in a way I think that energy got her hurt.
You know like the Evil Eye??
Whatever, please send your prayers out to my Natalie-Meadow cuz she's all comatose right now and I can't deal!
One day. I had her one day before disaster struck.
but then again it's like the perfect metaphor for everything else in my life, no?
Tomorro is running around, picking up lastminute Klonopin, cleaning out the rest of the stuff from my dorm, dropping off NM (if my dad knew he would FLIP!), some other crap I don't want to do..oh bringing Hallie and all her stuffs over to my aunts house.
*sniffle*
I miss her alreadys!! That tiny insomniac has picked up Mommy's horrid sleep schedule, bah i suck.
So woohoo we are going to Florida to stay at a nice hotel for a week on Saturday and I know I should feel all blessed and rich and stuffs but my OCD issues send me over the edge whenever there is *any* break in routine.
Like I need my time of drinking coffee and having a clove alone on the window sill and listening to music and thinkingthinkingthinking to prepare me for the coming day and I won't have that when I'm away and I won't have it tomorrow even and that sucketh mucheth.
Okay, fun exciting stuff now!!!
Tomorrow night I am meeting Other Jen aka
lipstickboi for coffee and to see a play and I am very nervous and excited because she sounded all lovely on the phone and this is the closest thing to a date I've gone on since I broke up with Willa in August.Hopefully I'll be able to get in a few hours of sleep before then so I don't just collapse.
OOhhhhhh they just showed the add for All My Children where they play Xtina's "Dirty" and the ladies are all fancy and wearing white and la la la...i heart that ad..
oh wow looks like i'm gonna still be up to catch the 6 AM OLTL...lol!
I'm going to bbe utterly SoapFree in Florida, cuz our hotel no get the ABC..
Evil!
I remember listening to Bianca's coming out fiasco at the Starlight Ball or whatever in my TV walkman(yes i have one of these somewhere) and i was wandering around Coconut Grove and that was like such a huge moment for me! like ppl kept trying to talk to me and i was like "SHUT UP!!! I'm listening to something important" and then I was taking photographs while I was listening to it, like in the parking lot and everytime I look at them I relive the whole thing.
I'm so cheezzzy I knows!!! *giggle*
but i was sooo proud of my little Binks and now i hardly even watch the show...oh wellz....
My sister and I were also watching "Sugar and Spice".
I FREAKING LOVE THAT MOVIE!!!
It makes me want to be a cheerleader lol and i rememer dying my hair auburn when i first saw it cuz i wanted to be Kansas (Mena Suvari's charac) cuz I thought she was the fucking bomb except for that little homophobic outburst which i chose to edit out.
But in reality I'm so much more Cleo (the stalky, obsessive, dreamy, nymphomaniac one!!) hehehe....
oh wells. i think abby just signed on, i'm gonna go talk to her.
*mwahimous*
