"all dressed in white..."

and it doesn't take yet another suicidal friend for me to know that girls destroy other girls...and that we destroy ourselves....and that it's all very sick and sad and true...and i'm so sick of it all...

why does having a girlfriend become the only way we can feel worth anything?

it's really just as bad as needing to have a boyfriend to feel worth anything, and we scoff at that...

regardless, i do worry for her and she signed off in a hurry and i always want to say the right things to ease ppl's souls but alas it's not my gift.

my gift is for sabotaging my own successes, one by one. i would like to look into returning this gift but ehhh have long since lost the receipt..

well, hallie is having a very difficult time with her molting and she looks so uncomfy and i tried to bring her to bed for a snuggle this morning but she can't bear to be touched. she was up half the night writhing and scratching at herself.

and that is how i feel. only inside.

saw "tuck everlasting".

what do we know about impulsivity..as a personality disorder? have been doing some reading and there was a description that fit me to a tee and when i read it the blurs went away and it all smelled crisp and sharp for a minute.

but what do i do with this info now is the thing?

i wanted to write more on it but my heart just isn't in it.

am talking to the lovely talula and frasia and also shinnen right now..

*yawns*



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look at me.. all chippy and electric!

my pirate name = Mad Jenny Flint


Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. Like the rock flint, you're hard and sharp. But, also like flint,
you're easily chipped, and sparky. Arr!